Update

I haven't updated in a looong long time. I write everything down in a leather journal book now. I still use fake moleskines but not for documenting my crazy mind any more. I'm pretty 'normal' now. I'm into a routine, gotten rid of negative people and items, and I am taking all the right things.

I travel to Edinburgh 3 days a week. 2 of which I get up at 4:30/ 5am so I can get the 6 bus. My Wednesday class starts at 1 so thats not so bad. It's a pain in the arse but I'm doing it.

Edinburgh College is a complete mess, totally unorganised. I'm dealing with it. I just get my head down and sort out absolutely everything myself; not leaving anything to the lecturers. So far, my kit has cost me £963.35. Overall, the course has probably cost me close to £1500 (up until the Oct holidays). I wouldn't recommend the course to people that cant get their parents to pay their kit (more than half of the class is getting everything (housing, food, kits, travel) paid by parents) or if they cant get a job. I'm back at Wetherspoons doing 12/13 hour shifts.

I've not learned much so far. We are doing basic make-up. I need to find 14 models before the end of the break. I have 10, I think. Its soooo hard to find male models.

One of my lecturers told the class to look at my sketchbook as it is a "wonderful example" of how everyone's sketchbooks should look. In some areas (moodboard/ sketchbook making, colour contrasting/ harmonising etc) I feel like a big fish in a small pond. Other times (hairdressing) I am a small fish; I quite like it. I want a challenge.

I have an instagram account for my MU. I'm not sure if anyone reads these blogs any more but my account is @caitsykesmua

It shows my classwork, face paints, and some products I'm buying. I think I might set up a blog for myself and see where it takes me. All i have to do is find the time!


This will probably be my last post on this blog. If I do create a new one I'll make a linking post. Although, I'm not sure Niall will be interested in what eye shadow I'm wearing!

Thank you 

IGOTIN

I GOT IN! I GOT IN! I GOT IN! I GOT IN! I GOT IN!

ALL MY WORK FROM THE LAST YEAR HAS PAID OFF. I AM GOING TO BE STUDYING MAKE-UP ARTISTRY FOR THE NEXT TWO YEARS IN EDINBURGH. Apparently 600 people applied for the 25 spaces AND I AM ONE OF THE 25!!!!!!

For the second interview I had to create a mood board and do a face plan. My mum was my model so I had to relate the mood board to her age group. The studio is amazing, massive mirrors with bright lights and huge fancy chairs. She asked me a few questions then asked me to get started. I was asked a couple of questions as I was applying the make-up. I finished and left under an hour. Got the email yesterday and I haven't stopped smiling since.

EEP I'M SO EXCITED! 

Forgot to post

Frida Kahlo. Based on actual photographs of her rather than her paintings. Loving putting costumes/ backgrounds together. Thinking about doing a range of artists. Got two face paints planned for tonight/ tomorrow. Missed doing it. Put together all the stuff for my next interview; well prepared. Will post a pic when I do the practice shot on Mum.

Visiting BC again next week to see everyone's stuff in the exhibition. I've been back twice in a month to sort some stuff and I've been shown some work by Jordan, Alice, and Martin. I'm really impressed. They've done so well and come so far.

College Interview

My interview was yesterday. It was fairly unorganised; everyone was told that their interview was 1pm. I was still waiting to be interviewed at 3:30pm. When I was taken in she looked through my stuff and asked me to summarise the essay I wrote. It was fairly simple. I wasn't asked proper questions though which I thought was strange.

I got an email at 9am this morning telling me I have got my second interview in June!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For this interview I need to do a makeup plan and take in a model and do the planned makeup on them. I also need to create a mood board, this time it cant be online. So I'm currently figuring out how to do that. I dont know if id make one online then blow it up to A3 sized or basically make a collaged image from magazines and print outs. I think that would look messy though.

I want to have it figured out and done in about 2 weeks time.

Iron Man

I used pictures of RDJ as Iron Man for reference. The eyes are a little wrong but I'm still quite happy with this; it took me forever. I edited out my eyes to see what it would look like and its super creepy but also shows that it works.

I was in college last week to see Siobhan about the portfolio I've put together for my interview. She seemed impressed which really helped calm my nerves. I got to look thought Alice's portfolio and Jordan showed me some of his work. They've progressed so much! No wonder Alice is wanted by London and Glasgow. Gutted I never saw any of Martin's work, looking forward to the exhibition so I can come in and have a skeg.

p.s. I'm 21 tomorrow. So there is that. I made it.

Mary Quant; The Graphic Face

It's not exactly the same.  For starters it is the wrong way round, but that doesn't REALLY matter. The lips aren't exactly the same nor is the eyebrow; the square is bigger than the original too. The original has a very different face shape to mine so I made it work with my cheekbones and eyebrow- eye spacing. 

Straight lines on a curved surface are incredibly hard to achieve. 

Soap making

I made soap today; Lemon Oatmeal! Subtle lemon scented with oatmeal to exfoliate and added coconut oil to keep hands soft for hours after. Wasn't going for presentation, was just focusing on it working. Turned out looking quite pretty though!

7 Deadly Sins

I have an interview for Make Up Artistry at Edinburgh College on the 22nd of April!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are two interviews and then I will find out if I am in or not.

 I've been working on a little project for a while now and here it is; The 7 Deadly Sins.

ENVY

GLUTTONY

GREED

LUST

PRIDE

SLOTH

WRATH

But weird setting up a sheet as a background, plopping yourself in front of a camera and posing like an idiot, but I'm quite happy with the results. The only thing I'm really annoyed about is that the sheets are crumpled even though I ironed the hell out of them. 

"Being Bipolar" Channel 4 Documentary

So Channel 4 did a documentary on "being bipolar". What a disappointing programme. Stephen Fry should have presented it.

Firstly, there doesn't have to be an emotional/ physical trigger for every person. Presenter Philippa Perry couldn't seem to grasp that fact. She seemed to be hoping for triggers- SHE EVEN BLAMED ONE PERSON'S BIPOLAR ON BEING AN ONLY CHILD. WHAT THE HELL. I quite liked when she said, "too often we ask what is wrong with someone rather than what has happened to them" though, but that is because mines was a trigger.

I found it a little annoying that they picked extreme people, and I don't feel that they showed each episode properly. I feel that "Being Bipolar" would have worked better if it was personal accounts from a number of people, talking in a diary format to a camera (there was a similar programme on BBC3 called "Diaries of a Broken Mind" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4JEZzWN4krI ). It would have been more interesting and more fitting, instead of just following some woman trying to uncover childhood trauma and shame people who use pills to help stabilise themselves.

The presenter was surprised that medication didn't "cure" bipolar disorder. WELL NAH... IT'S A CHRONIC ILLNESS! Did she even do any research before she decided to make a documentary about it?! She didn't seem to want to listen and would rather justify her own view of bipolar disorder.

I want more documentaries about mental health, especially bipolar as I feel many people just think people switch to extreme sides and that's it. That is not it. The good thing about this programme is that more people are talking about it, perhaps not in the right way but maybe people will research it.

Here is what it should have been like; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXOImAaAFj8&feature=youtu.be&list=PLw8TLvRgeKJ4U0IbynSzUKojAIeL-EcZ2

I'm not sure if I have anything else to add, I'm quite angry.

Mental Illness

Anorexia

Self Harm. THIS IS MAKE UP

Self harm using wax- kinda obvious but not at first glance. Need to work on smoothing it out/ make up coverage to make it the same skin colour. Used a needle to make cuts. 

Weeping Angel (Doctor Who)

Check out the vine of it too-

https://vine.co/v/Ot1m7peAz5A

Application day for the course I want to do. The website has been down for 4 hours because they are doing maintenance. Frustrating- been waiting for this day for so long.  

Zipper face

Using Spirit gum and liquid latex/ facepaint.
Feel I could do this again but better. Fixing it to my face is obvious. Also could cut the zip a bit

Still making books

Made two little books that fit into a matchbox. The paper inside is just rainbow card and the covers of the books are paint charts. Love that they fit in the little box, and i can also put in a wee pencil so that i can record any thought straight away.

Melted barbie

better look at the "melted plastic" 

The Grinch and a ramble

Forgot to post this before Christmas. The Grinch with contact lenses. Pretty creepy if I do say so myself.

Life is weird, It has a weird way of working out and turning itself beautiful. I cant sleep for the second night in a row. I just want to type. I feel as if I've gone slightly mad. I completed another moleskine last night and didn't have another spare so I have found myself with nothing to be creative with. I suppose I could do another face paint but I really just want to talk. I haven't felt like this in such a long time, I feel happy. It's sad when you think about it, that I haven't been happy in a long time. I mean, of course my family and niece make me happy, of course doing the face paints make me happy. But being in  manic episode is a completely different happy. It's like I finally feel... free...

I've felt so trapped the last few months that I kind of lost sight of everything. My heart feels like its beating again, the air I'm breathing is pure, and everything tastes nice again. I want to do things, I want to move around, I want to talk to large groups of people and interact and have fun.

I can never say "this year is my year" because I change so much. I cant predict my future and whether I'll even still be here by the end of the year. I've said since I was 15 that I'd never make it to 21, but now I WANT to make it to 21. I want to accomplish amazing things and be a happy person. I want to be able to see past 21 and decide what I want in my future- my career, my downtime, perhaps even a family (that last one scares me to even say, but its a looooooooooooooong time off). It's so overwhelming.

Sorry that this turned into a bit of a crazy all over the place post. I'm going to get more books tomorrow so no more posts like this.