Today marks an anniversary

For the last week/ week and a bit, I've had crappy internet. It keeps disconnecting every few minutes which makes doing anything almost impossible. I haven't really been feeling "there" the last couple of weeks either. By that I mean that my episodes are changing. At least, I think they are. That is the difficult thing about this, I never know whether I'm up or down. I think it's probably just a blip in the episode to be honest. I don't feel all that comfortable to talk about my current situation on the internet, but I will write about it in my sketchbook. 

Today marks an anniversary;

From Moleskine book 5

This time last year I was in the worst depressive episode to date. It was also on this day last year that I broke up with my boyfriend (I should clarify that I was already in a depressive episode before we broke up). I began focusing my Exploring Specialist Techniques on the hell he gave me afterwards and it was then that I decided that expressing my thoughts/ feelings/ opinions/ etc was the way I worked best. There isn't anything overly special about this but as I was binning my old calendar I was looking through it and came across a few significant dates. So I cut them out and added them in. I still occasionally get messages from him threatening me over facebook, but I've learned to block and delete. 

I've thought about posting a few pages of each moleskine book in order to be less safe. Perhaps one a day and give some insight along with it. However, if you've seen my books, you know what they contain and I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post that content on here. 

I've noticed that I haven't really been posting what is expected recently, but I think that is because I am currently still in the research stage for our new units. 

This blog will come alive again soon enough.