1. I applied for a job at my favourite shop ever and my close friend got it. I'm not mad at him (even though I was to begin with as he is unreliable and was recently chucked out of college for not even doing anything (but he is a good friend)) but I'm totally frustrated. I have qualifications, I had volunteer experience, I haven't been employed before though. I need experience to get experience. I have applied for every job that comes up in Hawick (even the mills) and I have yet to have an interview. I'm 20 years old and have never had a bloody interview!!! What the hell is up with that?!
2. I have to decide soon if I want to move to Edinburgh. I was planning on getting a job and moving up to live with friends but since I can't even get a job here, I'm worried about Edinburgh. So I have been thinking that I'll just maybe get a job here, focus on my etsy idea with all the crafty stuff, then move up at a later date if I want to. I'm all over the place with this to be honest.
3. Information Graphics/ FMP. Papermaking is fine, it's pretty much done. FMP has been suffering because of Info Graphs though. Info Graphs is just... taking over everything. I feel like I can't even escape it; I'm even dreaming about it in my sleep (well, more nightmares). Especially for the presentation that I think we have to do. I wouldn't normally be scared but after the last one, I am just totally getting worked up again (remember, the last one through me into another episode). I know I'll be fine, I just have to forget about the last one.
4. I posted a picture of more face paint inspired by the stress of college, my mental health, and the thoughts on the future and I go a lot of people messaging me telling me I "NEED" to go to college and do make up/ special effects. I had thought about it in high school and in first year college, but after all the drama that seemed to follow me I decided that I had given up on education and I just wanted to get on with responsibilities.
It is a bit morbid but fuck it...
After Friday I'm sure I'll feel better. Also, I'm gonna have a few words with people about their opinion on me perhaps applying to Edinburgh's Make Up Artistry course. I've signed up and filled half of it in- just need to put in a personal statement then I can send it away.
I don't know what to dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
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